11-06 (early a.m.):
The Emperor of Japan is speaking right now; Trump is visiting Asia this
week. He says he doesn’t believe Japan
and the United States have ever had such a strong bond… he calls him
Donald. He says they support us 100%,
even if we have to take military action against North Korea; he says we need to
put maximum pressure on North Korea right now to relinquish their nuclear and
missile development. He talked about
their dinner together being so enjoyable that the “almost forgot how time flew.” That’s cute. President Trump is speaking now; he says it’s been great to be
there, thanking the Japanese Emperor for his hospitality.
(Excerpt: A Letter to Heaven, Part 4, 'The Journey'): "Yesterday; a 26-year old Air Force veteran… discharged
dishonorably in 2014, who lived close to the area, shot and killed 26 people
and injured 20 others in a church service today in Sutherland, Texas. Ten of the injured are in critical
condition, and one child has died. My
God, what is wrong with this world?
They say he has no apparent links to “terrorism” but what else do you
call this?? Dressed in black, a black
mask with a skullface, wearing armor and armed with assault weapons, he shot a
couple people outside and then went into the church shooting. They say he walked almost all the way up to
the front, shooting all the way up and all the way back out… an average of 50
or so people attend that church every week; he shot 46 of them ages 18 months
to 77 years. It’s all the news is
talking about today. It’s said to be
the worst church massacre in United States history; definitely in Texas
history. Almost twenty-four hours ago,
as I sit and write; the thought of it is overwhelming. The people being interviewed, talking about
the horror of it all, it brings me to tears; and we may never know why for
sure. He is reported to have had some
type of mental illness, and had been charged with domestic violence before; his
wife’s parents attended that church, although they don’t appear to have been
there yesterday. There is some talk of
“atheism” but whether it’s because he was atheist and just taking his anger out
on random believers, or what, is not yet known. Officials say there is no religious motive so far as they know,
though; they are blaming “bad blood.”
The sheriff reports that there were some domestic issues going on
between him and the in-laws. Apparently
he had been sending the mother-in-law threatening texts, so you have to wonder
if it was somehow related, but then why.
Why yesterday? Why their church,
but not them? The Pastor spoke, vowing
to keep worshiping God no matter what danger comes; he ended with a prayer.
I spent the day with Eric today – picked him up from the
halfway house on a 12-hour pass; it was good to see him, and he looks really
good. He’s put some muscle on those
scrawny arms and built up his back and chest quite a bit; he looks happy, he
looks clean. He says he thinks he has
it knocked this time. He claims he has
no desire to go back to using. This
makes me hopeful, but then hearing him talk with Kristofer about the ‘trips’ they
had on acid before he went to prison make me wonder if he will ever be over it.
11-07 (4:40 AM) Just woke up - Anderson Cooper is on,
talking about what is now being referred to the biggest mass church shooting in
U.S. history, which came only weeks after the biggest mass shooting in U.S.
history, the Las Vegas shooting… he is interviewing the mother and sister of a
sixteen year old girl that was shot at the church. They described what a wonderful person this girl was; she wanted
to be a neo-natal nurse because she loved caring for babies. Her mom said she was so excited to graduate
and get on with her career; the sister described her as “kind of annoying” but
“sweet” and “generous.” Anderson asked
them, “how do you go on after losing someone like this? They replied, “we don’t know… we are trying
to figure that out.” They added,
“things will never be the same.” I
found myself blurting out, “no they won’t.”
Tears began to flow. It hurts no
less today than it did years ago; I still miss you every day. You are the driving force behind almost
everything I do now; my life was forever changed the day you died. My prayers go out to these people now
suffering the same challenge."
11-10-2017: So many things going on in the world right now…
Russia, Trump, all of Asia loves him it seems, shootings, riots, confusion over
the confederate flag/ civil war, statues and monuments being taken down and
removed from public parks (as if we can erase our past by not acknowledging
it), and now, I hear there is a petition to get rid of the national anthem
because “it’s racist”? What is going on
people?
11-14… 80 degrees today; average 68.(15th) slight
cool down (16th) warm again, 78
11-17: Another influential man in Hollywood has been accused
of sexual harassment… of another man. Terry Crews tells a story of being
grabbed by the genitals when he attempted to shake his molester’s hand after a
party _ years ago….Two more woman have made accusations against Roy Moore
(candidate for senate); he still denies it all and refuses to drop out of the
race, even though other politicians have called for him to do so. I believe people will support these women
and vote accordingly anyway. This opens
the door for ANYONE to safely tell if they have been violated by anyone else,
regardless of status. Louis CK, Harvey
Weinstein… Kevin Spacey; crazy. Contracts being cancelled, movie release
scrapped, sponsors pulled out, indefinite banishment industry wide pretty much
for all of them – and more accusations still being made every day. What a time we are living in… it’s about
damn time all that crap stops. People
need to be held accountable for their actions, everywhere, at all times and
that’s all there is to it.
11-20-2017: On Late Night with Seth Meyers tonight, the first guest
stated something I found to be quite poignant at this particular point in time:
“The reckoning now, the tsunami... the crashing of all these pent up secrets and
rage and righteous indignations that women have had to bear – and not just
women, now men too, as we are learning in the case of Kevin Spacey and others…
is connected to what happened a year and a half ago… [*speaking of when our
current president admitted to doing the same thing, and sixteen women made
accusations against him, and now, the fact that Trump won’t even comment on the
accusations against Roy Moore] …he [Trump] doesn’t actually care about what
happens in the world; he just wants the attention on him.” ~Chris Hayes
(Excerpt: A Letter to Heaven, Part 4, 'The Journey'): Working on my book again tonight (Part 2); I’ve tried to put in time
now and then this year, and quite a bit more lately… aiming for January 5, 2018
to have it published. You would have
been 55 on that day, once again, seemingly two years older than me (even though
I would catch up to only ‘a year’ apart eight months later (for those next four
months). I turned 53 this year and it
just doesn’t seem much different than twenty years ago, when I realized I was
finally older than you would ever be.
Seems almost ironic now that you would die just one week before your 33rd
birthday; symbolic somehow (on Kasey’s father’s birthday, the day before hers
and with Eric’s the day after); what a week you left us to deal with every
year. I mean, we can’t just ignore it,
because we can’t forget it; those days are constant reminders of the week you
spent in the hospital before you finally let go and they removed the
machines. I STILL remember it as if it
were yesterday – and the fact that we are getting close to ‘those dates’ again,
and I’m trying to get this Part 2 edited, makes this year even a little
rougher. Dredging up all these old journal
notes; entries I’d overlooked before when I through my eBook together so
quickly in 2009. This will be quite a
revision from that one. Much
information I had forgotten; hmmm, you know, I wasn’t in the best frame of mind
at that time. So notebooks are
scattered, and journals are sparsely written for about three years there;
2005-2008 or so. I was in kind of a fog
during that time and it’s been a little emotional going back through it all; my
writings by hand, my many randomly named and arbitrarily stored documents, both
in Microsoft Word and Corel WordPerfect (which many probably have never even
heard of now). I sure hope Kris got
everything off of my three old computers and onto my external hard…and that I haven’t
wiped any of it out accidentally.) God,
I worry so much about losing my writings, or how I’m ever going to find them
again once stored. I should really have
a log where I enter every document I store and the file and folder it is stored
in; I think I pick the right place every time, and yet it never fails that I
can’t the one document I am looking for.
I’ve got to figure out a better method of organization.
11-19: Della Reese died today (Touched by an Angel co-star)
11-20: Temperatures
dropping in the northwest and mid-east; Charles Manson dead
*A 14-year old girl, Harper Edigar (?), has been given
a job as a columnist by the New York Times!
That’s awesome.
David Cassidy (Keith from the Partridge Family) passed away
at the age of 67 today; he struggled with addiction to alcohol throughout his
life – diagnosed with dementia in his 50’s, he retired.
11-21: Now Charlie Rose, respected veteran author and
journalist and morning show host, has EIGHT women accusing him of sexual
assault! As far back as the 90’s they
say, he would grab women’s legs, groping, presenting himself to several women
naked at least a dozen times, and making unwanted advances, ‘lewd’ phone calls
and comments. “That’s just Charlie,”
some would say – but the behavior was allowed to continue. He admits behaving insensitively and tells
the women, “I hear them…”; but claims he thought he was “pursuing shared
feelings.” CBS has suspended him,
effective immediately and more women are expected to come forward against him
in coming weeks. They say there was a
lot of ‘talk’ and some people (on the inside) actually knew, allowing the
behavior to continue. Harvey
Weinstein? I’ve lost track of how many
women have come out with accusations against him. A second woman has come forward against Al Franken too, grabbing
her rear end when they posed for a photo her husband was taking of them, while
he was a sitting Senator; he says he “feels badly [she] came away from [their]
interaction feeling disrespected.” The
other woman, whom he was shown pretending to grab boobs of in a photo, now
viral, has also accused him of forcibly kissing her backstage after a USO
tour. Governor of Alabama, Roy Moore, a
current candidate (for Senate, I believe) has more than a dozen women who say
he either tried, or did actually, sexually assault them AS TEENAGERS, when he
was a 32 year old District Attorney..
He says he “never dated any girl without the permission of her
mother.” Oh my god, are you kidding
me???~! Louis CK has been basically
blacklisted by everybody; a movie he just finished making, ready for release,
has been pulled from release, all contracts cancelled, sponsors pulled out… his
career is over. Numerous accusations
against executive producer, Roger Ales and reporter, Bill O’Reily, at the FOX
network came out last year; they say the cost to Fox was about Fifty Million
dollars; this includes sponsor withdrawals and advertisement withdrawals, as
well as settlements paid out to accusers; now, the paper that exposed the
allegations against O’Reily {The New York Times} has a journalist, John Thrush,
with four female coworkers making allegations of sexual harassment against
him!
*This IS happening. Men and women are realizing that this kind
of treatment does not have to be tolerated BY ANY BODY; victims are noticing
more and more that it is okay to tell!
It’s the only way this type of behavior is ever going to stop; and it’s
about time. Dan Abrams explains that
even “unwanted touching” can be a criminal act and people, both male and
female, need to be more careful with their behavior.
11-24 (the day after thanksgiving) New accusations against
Al Frankin; and a third women accuses a congressman “Conyers” who called her
into his office where he was wearing only his shirt and underwear! Oh my god!
This is crazy…but like, awesome crazy.
I am so glad shit like this is coming out; showing how prevalent this
problem is ALL OVER THE PLACE, in every industry, in every country around the
world. It’s definitely time it stops.
;-)
Also a veteran police officer, killed with his own service
weapon one day before he was scheduled to testify against eight Baltimore
officers, for “shaking down citizens, stealing drugs and then selling them” the
news says. Sounds suspicious... Shawn Suitor, I believe, was
his name; people are out of their minds.
Now a mail bomb plot exposed; planned for Obama during his
Presidency and some governor, who actually opened it, but the bomb failed… this
was a little old lady! And what got her
caught was a single CAT hair, which they matched up to her cat! That’s crazy all the way around!
Wow… a Brussels Griffin took first place at the National Dog
Show yesterday! That’s the little dog
that looks like my Velvet – I had never heard of it until about a year ago when
someone asked me if that’s what she was; I came home and Googled it and
couldn’t believe the resemblence. It was
uncanny; this one was blonde, but the same little face, many said looks like
Chubaka, but the reporter said he thought it looked more like an ewok! So many people tell me Velvet looks like an
ewok. That is just strange.
11-28: Only 4%
of the nation is covered in snow right now, opposed to it’s normal (or average)
28% ~! “Unseasonably warm,” they are
calling it… yeah. It sure is.
11-29:
Woke up to the following news this morning: Eli Manning is benched? Why?
Not known yet. Prince Harry has
gotten engaged to an American woman, who is half white and half black; in
itself, a big deal. Marriage, to take
place at Windsor Castle. And, it looks
like we are going to war, fairly soon, with North Korea; they launched a
missile overnight that has been verified by our people over there to have the
capability of reaching the ENTIRE United States. We aren’t going to wait for them to weaponize it and send it our
way. We can’t.
